Wednesday, March 7, 2012
First Wednesday.. Insecure Writer's Support Group
You Have A Friend In Failure
What Are Your Excuses?
Treading Water or Body Surfing?
Sorta feel like I should say something about how, I'm not just the President of the Insecure Writers.. I'm also a client.
Hell, the name of my blog is Graphophobia.. which literally means A Fear of Writing. So for my first entry into this storied tradition of my fellow timid scribes, I thought I'd just put a toe in to test the water, in the spirit of insecurity.
I am a voracious reader, a day can't pass without me reading at least for 30 minutes or so before I got to sleep. However this seems to be a double-edged sword for me because often it seems I read books from authors that I greatly respect and admire.. and inevitably I find myself looking at their writing and comparing it to my own drivel and coming away muttering something about having been weighed in the balances and found wanting.
I know it's not fair to expect my writing, as a novice writer, to measure up at this stage. I haven't put in my esoteric 'million words' yet.. my stripes have not been earned. Also I know that I'm comparing a rough draft, possible a second or third rewrite with a piece of writing that has been gone over dozens of times by the author and professionals at the publishing company.
In other words.. I realize that it's an unfair comparison. Doesn't change the way it impacts me, however. I look at their literature, and my feeble attempts, and I shrink inside my own mind.
Now.. I have improved over the past year or so over how I used to react in those situations. As I said, I know very well that it's a total apples to orange comparison. The problem is, even with that knowledge.. it still has an impact.
I've actually considered not reading while I'm in the process of writing a 1st draft or a 1st or second edit. But that just seems unrealistic as I always seem to find myself in one of those various stages at this point in my life as a writer.
So I guess, where I'm headed with this for any other Insecure Writer's who stumble upon this blog is.. have you experienced anything similar.. and how did you deal with it? Did you simply outgrow it, or did you find some other way to deal with it.. or is it something that you just have to learn to deal with over time?
I promise, all my posts in this hop won't be so negative.. but this one was the freshest in my mind, so there you have it.